Showing posts with label dyslexia. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dyslexia. Show all posts

Friday, July 25, 2008

Dyslexia - Part Two


Confusion and the crowd

It is hard to call yourself dyslexic. One reason is the abuse of the term. A person flips a few numbers and maybe a bit of a lazy reader and *bam* the self-diagnosis is Dyslexia. At this point many say, hey I do that – I must be dyslexic. Please consider what you’re saying. Leaving a word out of a sentence on a essay does not make you dyslexic. Leaving out a word on almost every sentence in an essay, would make you a candidate for such a condition. And a condition you do not want. Such a balsa attitude shows an utter misunderstanding about what dyslexia is. (For the record that gets under the skin of those with this particular DNA combination.) This “Your problems no Problem” attitude lead’s people think your no different then them only lazy or dumb. Another reason is the opposite extreme. It is the utter stigma people may give it. Such judgments are the result of peoples first hand experience. For example, there is little difference between stupid and dyslexic in the minds of people when you ask how to spell the word “Neighbor” because spell check is responding back with “WTF?” If you’re quick on your feet, personal, and verbally articulate, as many dyslexics are, you will often be passed off as a Novelty. So all this to say, much confusion about the what dyslexia is cause much unneeded pain for those with it.

Cutting through the Confusion

Ronald D. Davis in his book, Gift of dyslexia writes on the experience he had with the confusion that surrounds this learning disability.

Once as a guest on a television show, I was asked about the "positive" side of dyslexia. As part of my answer, I listed a dozen or so famous dyslexics. The hostess of the show then commented, "Isn't it amazing that all those people could be geniuses in spite of having dyslexia."

She missed the point. Their genius didn't occur in spite of their dyslexia, but because of it!

He goes on to say:

Having dyslexia won't make every dyslexic a genius, but it is good for the self-esteem of all dyslexics to know their minds work in exactly the same way as the minds of great geniuses. It is also important for them to know that having a problem with reading, writing, spelling, or math doesn't mean they are dumb or stupid. The same mental function that produces a genius can also produce those problems.

What is dyslexia?

The simple definition is “extremely difficult to read, write, and spell in your native language—despite at least average intelligence.” My favorte definition is “the umbrella slang word for public's inability to understand the complex and extraordinary thought process of 'Multi-dimensional FreeThinking". I’m sure you guessed I like that one for it's bit. (ha ha) For my purpose, I want to dig a little deeper. I want to look at how dyslexia is scientifically understood. On my next, blog, I suggest a way of viewing dyslexia theologically. In that section I will outline a theologically understanding of dyslexia as I see it (a little D-lex humor). But first the scientific, followed by some concluding thoughts on the matter.. The international dyslexia association gives us a more complete definition from a scientific perspective.

Dyslexia is a neurologically-based, often familial, disorder which interferes with the acquisition and processing of language. Varying in degrees of severity, it is manifested by difficulties in receptive and expressive language, including phonological processing, in reading, writing, spelling, handwriting, and sometimes in arithmetic.

Dyslexia is not the result of lack of motivation, sensory impairment, inadequate instructional or environmental opportunities, or other limiting conditions, but may occur together with these conditions.

Although dyslexia is lifelong, individuals with dyslexia frequently respond successfully to timely and appropriate intervention.

I want to highlight some point about dyslexia.

Section one

One, Dyslexia is an inherited condition. Researchers have determined that a gene on the short arm of chromosome #6 is responsible for dyslexia. That gene is dominant, making dyslexia highly heritable. It definitely runs in families.

Two, Dyslexia results from a neurological difference; that is, a brain difference. People with dyslexia have a larger right-hemisphere in their brains than those of normal readers. That may be one reason people with dyslexia often have significant strengths in areas controlled by the right-side of the brain, such as artistic, athletic, and mechanical gifts; 3-D visualization ability; musical talent; creative problem solving skills; and intuitive people skills. In addition to unique brain architecture, people with dyslexia have unusual "wiring". Neurons are found in unusual places in the brain, and are not as neatly ordered as in non-dyslexic brains. In addition, f/MRI studies have shown that people with dyslexia do not use the same part of their brain when reading as other people. Regular readers consistently use the same part of their brain when they read. People with dyslexia do not use that part, and there appears to be no consistent part used among dyslexic readers. One part of the brain has hijacked the function. This can be a benefit or a curse depending on how the development pathways form in the individual.

Common observable traits of Dyslexics:

· High IQ, low test scores

· Daydream often

· Read/write with additions, omissions, substitutions, reversals

· Transposition of letters, numbers or words

· Mispronounce long words

· Unorganized

· Often confuse left/right, over/under, up/down, etc.

· Poor time management

· Poor reading skills and comprehension

· Poor at word problems in math

· Poor self-esteem

· Easily frustrated

Three, Dyslexia is not a result of a lack of motivation or sensory impairment. It is not that I need glasses or any such aid. Dyslexia has nothing to do with a defect in the normal range of physical sensory ability. If just does not work like that. Also, Many confuse lack of motivation for laziness. Many with dyslexia care little for learning because the process becomes like climbing a mountain every day. Who would want to climb Everest, day in and day out? Such lack is not a cause of the problem only a symptom. Don’t tell a dyslexic to just study harder, tell them to take Socrates advice and “know thy self,” to learn how they think and learn so they can “teach thy self.”

So Dyslexia while considered a disability is really people who are wired a little differently thus the fact that it considered a learning disability says more about what is considered learning. Dyslexic people are visual, multi-dimensional thinkers. Dyslexia is a brain thing, mental functions that are common in dyslexic range in degree and intensity. There are 8 basic mental functions common among those with dyslexia.

1. They can utilize the brain's ability to alter and create perceptions (the primary ability).

2. They are highly aware of the environment.

3. They are more curious than average.

4. They think mainly in pictures instead of words.

5. They are highly intuitive and insightful.

6. They think and perceive multi-dimensionally (using all the senses).

7. They can experience thought as reality.

8. They have vivid imaginations.

We are intuitive and highly creative, and excel at hands-on learning. The key to understand this way our brains work is in system thinking a type of Big Picture thinking, which evolves thinking in pictures and relational connection. Because we think in pictures, it is sometimes hard for us to understand letters, numbers, symbols, and written words. Now there is a difference between a person that is a predominately visual thinker and one that has dyslexic. The former has the ability to think in abstract without formulating it into a pictorial form first. The latter, can learn to read, write and study efficiently when we use methods geared to our unique learning style. Dyslexics have the tendency and ability to visualize all dimensions of symbols. Seeing and thinking three-dimensionally is a great asset, especially in today's multimedia world. So when is dyslexia a "disability"? It is a disability when it is not valued and cultivated as a learning difference and crutches are used to get through traditional education.

From around 3rd grade I was labeled "Learning Disabled" and "Dyslexic”. I recognized as a child that all my testing from elementary school through college only pointed out that I was not at my appropriate grade level and that was a problem. I was fortunate to be in a place that helped those like me with methods geared for my unique learning style.

Formulating non-visual words

Dyslexics tend to be visual thinkers. As they read or hear, they want to visualize what they're learning. Take this sentence: "Give me the ball." A young dyslexic may get stuck on the words "give" and "the". The dyslexic student can visualize a ball but has a more difficult time visualizing "the". Ron Davis uses clay as a method to help dyslexics visualize non-visual words. His students work on mastering certain known-troublesome words with clay. I used what was called a tactle board that I spelled words on. To this day, I can feel some words when I write them. I still tear up thinking about the first time laying in my bed, I leaned over and wrote on the wall the word “grace” reflecting on that night as I wrote G R A C E, it came to me I knew, really knew, what it meant. Finally, this abstract consept was visual to me, embodied in a moment that is between me and the Lord. With all dyslexics, the struggle is the process of visualization, which takes more energy and causes dyslexic students to take longer to complete a task.

Education and the Dyslexic

Some of the traits of dyslexics are seeing, thinking, and perceiving multi-dimensionally. Traditional educational processes interfere with a multi-dimensional thought process. Eventually, this becomes a problem as dyslexics tend to find it difficult to understand language in traditional methods of learning. Multiply this problem over years, and you have a student with what "they" call a "learning disability". I believe that providing an educational process in harmony with the multi-dimensional free thinker's thought process will result in greater success for students. Dyslexics often possess higher than normal intelligence and extraordinary creative abilities, which can be compromised by a traditional educational process. In that case, dyslexic children can struggle with their stifled talents. Some outlets for this energy are positive; some are not. It's not fun playing a game you're not good at that others are. Some develop traits recognized as characteristics of ADD. Some turn to art or sports; some become teachers' pets to make up the difference. Some disturb the class; some do things you don't want to know about. I did them all.

Dyslexia is a unique, hidden learning difference that requires a different educational approach. Most school system still do not address dyslexia in the way I believe it needs yet this is understandable oversight can only help on a general level. It is up to the child and there will to strive for the best Human they can be. In college I got accommodations, which were helpful but could have been a crutch for me if I was not so doggedly determined to prove something to myself. These Accommodation where Extra time on tests, Tutors and note takers, and Books on tape.

Traditional schools generally try to fit everyone in a box, feeding students information at the same pace with little regard to their learning differences. Of course those who learn differently "fall behind" because they have to decode information to absorb it. They learn differently, not slowly, but the result is like a domino effect. Many students' self esteem goes down as a result of their frustration, which increases when they feel that no one understands them.

I personally believe that dyslexics are also human antennas who get distracted or inspired by the world around them, like the old days when getting in front of the antenna would make the tv reception phase out. Dyslexics need to be engaged in learning to minimize loosing focus to other things. Using more of their senses is a good way to engage dyslexics in learning.

Day dreaming believer - My experience of learning

When I think about ideas, I use my "mind's eye" to actually see what I am thinking or what others are telling me. In this state of mind, I go through a virtual walk-through. Personal I believe that dyslexics and "learning disabled" people have heightened sensitivity to external stimulation and are come with a disposition that allows them to cultivate a spiritual awareness easer and quicker than most. I also think Jeremiah and Ezekiel was dyslexic but how can I be sure right?

It is necessary for me to visualize everything. I remember being frustrated in Algebra classes as I tried to visualize the concept of a negative multiplied by a negative equaling a positive. My logic was this: if you dig a hole, you have a negative; if you multiply the hole, You have a field full of holes. But it's not; it's a positive! And no one can explain it! They want us to simply accept it. Well, I just can't, not if I'm going to truly know it. I would frustrate teachers with one question, WHY? It is no wonder I have degrees in psychology theology and philosophy.

Like blind people often have stronger senses such as hearing and smelling, I believe dyslexics have stronger mental visualization. Information is seen in my head like a movie, which allows me to get a clear picture of how I'm going to accomplish something before I even start. I can't even write a paper till I can see the whole paper. many don’t get this about dyslexics. I have been working on my Master's thesis in ethics for about a year and just now am I seeing it to write it. I can create a visual walk-through of what someone is telling me. Sometimes the information will trigger a different subject, usually a profound idea or perspective of what I am learning. I call them "sparks" and "idea rolling".

I go on virtual journeys often; it is the core of how I create an end-product. I love it when the Lord uses the same natural talent to show me something. Those journeys are of a totally different nature but, shall we say, ride on the same boat.

Sometimes, I work like a "mad-man" when I want to finish what I've started. Once I am grounded (a prayerful process of focusing my mind, and asking desperately for help; AND HE IS ALWAYS FAITHFU!) and in the moment (connecting all my senses to the task at hand) with the book or computer or bible before me, I have been known to work for hours without eating, drinking or getting up to go to the bathroom. I don't have balance in this area, but I really like to work in this way. I get so excited and passionate about the subject, often theological, that, when I finish, I am almost in a state of euphoria. It love it, for the joy of it - and that joy drive me. Neither money, not fame nor the hopeless seeking after popularity, it is the idea and the one behold all ideas that so fascinates my mind heart and soul. I may die poor but I am rich. I have journeyed places and seen thinks it is unlawful for me to tell of, but God knows the value of such journeys, he took me on them and one day there true value will be known

Dyslexia 1.5

Three Videos on Dyslexia

The First is an encouraging spot for NBC new



The Second and third are educational videos on the subject







Monday, June 02, 2008

Dyslexia: Part ONE... "The words make fun of me…"

When I am weak, then I am strong.
(2 Corinthians 12:10)

There is no fear where love exists. Rather, perfect love banishes fear.
(1 John 4:18)

But by God's grace I am what I am, and his grace shown to me was not wasted. Instead, I worked harder than all the others-not I, of course, but God's grace that was with me.
(1 Corinthians 15:10)

Barefoot Grace: when weakness, fear and trembling get inside love

“Please don’t call on me” the boy thought as he hid behind a girl sitting in front of him. It was a typical day in 6th grade. A day like all others, except, today was reading day. It was a small class only 26 but the boy wished for one more person. All 25 had read. He had kept up and as always he was last. Peering through her pig tails the teacher's eye and his eye met. “Read the next 3 sentences?” His heart sank.

He looked at the book for a moment and slowly he flopped it open. As the book tipped and spread across his desk, the boy noted the texture and aged look of the book. To himself, he asked and pondered its own story... His mind sparked and in the time of a blink, he created and enjoyed a little story of how the book found its way to his desk. It had traveled the world from Topeka Kansas, where it was published, to the hands of a small missionary school in India. It was read by Tong Tong, an Indian boy, now fur trader. who sold it back to a literate sailor seeking education as well as adventure. Somehow it made the trek back to America and not just America but Georgia and not just Georgia but Macon Ga. Their it was found by His teacher and given to him.

He knew it was not a true story but anything was better then reading! His story was much more interesting than any story in the book. He laughed out loud at his train of inspiration, smiling big in satisfaction, before realizing the class was widely gaping at him, with looks that acted like "Crooked" road signs pointing him in the wrong direction. This was not the first time, there looks he knew all to well.

That one was “Idiot!”

Over there was “YOUR WEIRD!”

The row over, “PITTY”

His friends, “YOUR STUPID!”

Even the teacher though she tried to hide it silently stared in blind confusion, “YOU’RE HOPELESS.”

Returning to the book and settling himself the boy nervously thought “The book would help him? right?” Well traveled books are helpful? Right? They understand, right? The boy stared at the book as if waiting for it to talk to him. Hoping that somehow looking at the words long enough would make the confusion, empty spaces, and lost connections, go away, Fill up and reconnect. Yet the boy knew that reality was not in fanciful thinking and books did not help you read but are for reading. Waiting would only delay the inevitable.

In a voice projecting an apparent confidence, the boy read “THE…” The teacher stops him. "No. The word is 'A' " As He stared at the page he could hear the words laughing at him, slowly he realized it was the giggles of his class mates. "It is A." The teacher said sweetly amidst the giggles of the class.

“THE … Boy.. Wa.. Wal.. WALKS… The boy looks up for approval. The teacher nods as if to say good job. His eyes spark. He smiles and continues… “THE BOY WALKS ….. ME.. HO..” Laughter explodes out of the class filling the room with a condemning joy. Seeing he messed up somehow he quickly comes to his own defense. “ME HO.. It could be the name of a boy..... from china? Or.. Or.. something….”

The teacher stops him and the class, “The word is HOME…Dawson.. The word is Home.. Keep Reading.” He could hear some classmates deliberating behind him ...

“Think he will make it this time?"

"NO way! It will be over soon…He ant got it in him.. He’s Stupid! He said home backwards!"

"and upside down"

"Stupid!”

In the distance, some of the boys in the back began to softly chant "Noswad... Noswad... Noswad..." The teacher eyed them and the chanting quickly faded away.

After hearing the conversation the boy looked up at the teacher and resolutely said “Can I read now?” "We don't know!", a bodiless voice said and the class erupted again in laughter. The boy grits his teeth determined to make it to the last word. Looking at the page, there was a long pause the silence was palpable. Without lifting his head the boy spoke up, “I don’t know that word...” More laughter. The teacher warns the class.

The word is “FROM.”

The boy read, “THE BOY WALKED HOME FROM” … the teacher added “SCHOOL”. The boy repeated “SCHOOL.” More silence.

Slowly smiling as if he had just planned a brilliant escape the boy said, “OOOOH! “THE BOY WALKS HOME FROM SCHOOL!” “That reminds me, I did that yesterday; walked home from school. It was dry. I saw on the news that we may get some rain later in the week. What do you think?”

“I think you need to keep reading! Dawson.. read, NOW, please!” Ten minuets now have passed and the teacher's voice bristled with frustration.

Giggles of earlier now faded and the class rests in awkward silence and distracted laziness. Not giving up the boy said “THE BOY WALKS HOME FROM SCHOOL! .. A DAY...”

"No! Dawson! “THE!” It is 'the'….T.H.E! You can do this! Dawson!"

In a wispy voice that sounded of weakness but is really the strength of the soul grunting as it holds back a flood of pain, hurt, and tears, the boy said, "Yes ma'am, I'm trying.." After a deep breath, the boy again echoed the teacher “THE…” "THE D.. DA" As before he could hear the words laughing at him yet this time the class remained silent. On a frequency only he could hear the word secretly mocked him.

The boy read, “THE DAY…”

The words chanted…. “Dumb Dawson… Don’t know a thing.”

He kept reading “W… WA ... WAS…

“How Stupid are you? Rocks are smarter and more useful!”

The teacher said “HOT” The boy repeated “HOT.” “THE DAY WAS HOT.” Looking up, His lip trembled he knew it was taking to long. He knew his time was up, as if in slow motion the the teacher conceded.

“You can stop! Don’t go any further.”

Just then the words, the class, the room, the very air with one voice cried out,

“FAILURE! YOU’RE A FAILURE!”

The boy could almost taste the blackness. It happened, one tear hit the page.. The boy knew more were coming! He could feel them rising! He blurted out “Can I go to the bath room? Before the teacher could acknowledge him the boy darted out the door and down the hall. He ran. He ran Hard. He was always good at running. And when He ran, as it was said in a movie he would see many years later, He could feel God's pleasure. AS He ran He felt the pleasure of GOD. He kept running out the door and down to the gym.

Out running the tears,

Out running the words,

Out running the labels,

Out running himself.

Some say he has never stopped running. He never stopped pushing himself. He never stopped out running himself. But that day he did stop, he was stopped in his tracks when something his father told him came to mind. There in-between the gym and the classroom, almost a metaphor for his life, he remembered his dad’s words, “I love you, Mama Loves you and Jesus loves you that’s all that matters! When you know that, nothing can make you run!”

The Boy walked back to the class room just before entering the boy paused to tie his shoes, then decided to take them off. Anyway, He was not going anywhere. The boy could feel the cold painted concrete on his feet. They would not diminish his courage to finish. Shoes in hand, he entered a room full of "crooked" road signs but this time nothing would stop him, not even himself.

Seeing Life through tears is common for a dyslexic but overcoming fear by embracing weakness is the glory of a dyslexic. To this day, when the boy's feet feels the cold hard texture of painted concrete, he cant help but smile and be reminded of the courage that Love gives. One tear hit the page encapsulating one word. Inside a tear “the” can become an “A” and inside Love, fear can become courage.

"The greatest weakness of all is the great fear of appearing weak, LD / Dyslexics face their fears everyday in school, thus are some of the fearless people I know."

- Girard Sagmiller


So Remember the spiritual lessons Dyslexia can teach.

1. Inside Love, fear can become courage.

2. The greatest and most controlling fear is the fear of not appearing weak.

3. Fighters are Runners remade by the grace of God. Fighters are Runners moved by the feel of barefoot grace.

4. The appearance of weakness is the truth of a believer. Courageously acknowledging personal weakness is the beauty of a believer. Overcome fear by embracing weakness is the glory of a believer.


Writers note - in the story above I tried to bring you into a world few understand. To show in some little slice the world as a dyslectic feels it. I was hoping to help people see through My eyes emotionally while gaining an understanding of the whole.

More importantly - showing the truth that moments of embarrassment can become moments of empowering grace. Such moments in life train us to understand just how divine strength squeaks through our weakness. It is my favorite paradox of grace - weakness is strength. Today a businessman or Political power player may tell you "weakness is just weakness, it will amount to pain, oppression, and rejection. Weak people are failures and will not make it in a dog eat dog world." Yet in God's kingdom courage only comes one way in the acknowledgment of your weakness and uncovering of your need for help. Such undressing of the soul before God is the door to acceptance, freedom, and hope. In such honesty, fields of grace open to you and the spiritual presence which clothes the soul in courage is personally disclosed in your weakness.

In the final analysis
To be perfictly clear the main point of this story was to remind us the greatest weakness of all is the fear of appearing weak but when we embrace our weakness through Truth, and Love - Grace empowers and overthrows all fear in a revolution of the heart.